Saturday, December 1, 2012

Thankfulness And Expectations

The word, the concept and the holiday.
Each are seemingly straightforward (one would think).
One would be wrong.
Because amid the gray Thursdays, black Fridays, cyber Mondays and Plaid Saturdays
I put forward the possibility that we've grown a bit lost. And not only on
There's no part of me that doesn't enjoy shopping, lol
For food or fun or vintage or material or (fill in the blank, lol)
And yet....and yet...
I can't escape the sound of chewing upon on the edge of my mind that says
"what about what you already HAVE"?
It seems endemic that the moment we 'have it' (whatever it may be)
it's counted as a given, irrevocable, permanent. No need to be
thankful for things one already possesses...Or is there?
Isn't that one of the foundation stones of Thanksgiving? Of life?
Life has shared with me that one of her profound truths is the transitory nature of everything.
Life itself, possessions, dreams, hopes, failure, success, power, health, weakness.
All things change, alter.
Yet it's so common within our society to expect what we have will remain the same.
One of the astounding, ever-present, beautiful and 'oft distressing aspects
of farm life is the dynamic day to day illustration precisely how life alters, changes.
Crops grow. Crops fail. Animals live and die. Hawks soar, animals they overfly become dinner. Winter snow and Summer rains become water in the well to sustain life for all on the farm.
There are times things go wrong. Things change.
Not enough water, not enough sun. Animal illness. Human illness. Insufficient firewood. It's perhaps easier to remain in touch here on this land,  depending upon nature and chance to see the truth that food, warmth, ease and contentment are not a 'given', not secured. Not permanent. Not by any amount of work or money or intention or hope. There are times things go wrong.
Those thoughts, the realities that I see all thru the year instigated the chewing, the wondering at the edges of my mind if it isn't important on Thanksgiving (and every day) to be thankful for the things we oh-so-casually are inclined to think of as permanent.
Because permanent is a word and an illusion, but is rarely if ever a truth or a fact.
I have never been desperately hungry or cold.
I have never been without decent clothing.
I have never been without a shower or tub.
I've never faced war or personal violence.
I have, thus far, had more to be thankful for
 than I tend to think of as often or deeply as I should.
I shouldn't think of any of these (or my other comforts and joys)
as permanent, as irrevokable as unchangeable, should I?
What I desire, what I seek can overshadow or eclipse
what I have if I don't pay attention.
Hey, I don't believe gray, black, cyber and plaid days can't coexist with thankfulness. I simply plan to remind myself things are not the foundation of Thanksgiving, nor of happiness, nor of life.


BumbleBeeLane said...

This year will be a sparce christmas in our house as far as gifts go,but you know it really doesn't bother me at all.I really can't even think of anything I need or for that matter even want.I look around and have counted and recounted my blessings and am content.Warm Blessings!~Amy

Kim said...

Another thoughtful post. Just this week I had a conversation with a few friends on how we could all fill a truck from each of our houses and still be OK. We have too much stuff in general. But on the other side of the coin, the things we buy employ people who make them, sell them etc.
But it is good to be reminded to be thankful for what we have, instead of moaning about what we want.

Florida Farm Girl said...

Oh, you are so right!! I plead guilty of that same forgetfulness sometimes. Thanks for the reminder to be grateful.